Stress

Even though it has been over five weeks since I stepped down from my position at work, I haven't really gotten started doing my new job. For the new guy, there's lots of questions, lots of background, and lots of helping him understand what we've been doing the last six years and what still needs to be done. It's going well. But, there have been some hard issues to deal with. Even Bible in the Schools is not immune from the current economic strain. We're dependent upon contributions. Donors are dependent upon income.

Anyway...Monday was a stressful day. Not because of length, but because we've had to communicate some program reductions. So, true to fact, Monday night was more painful than normal. And, it was a good reminder of why I needed to step down. I used to thrive just fine with deadlines and pressure. No more. Stress = increased pain.

I guess I needed the reminder because I wasn't ready emotionally or mentally to step down. I never thought that at 58 I would not have the vitality of when I was 50 (let alone 40 or 30). Instead, it's the vitality of what I thought I would have when I became old. And we look at old as being what we will be one day but yet we still don't think we will be.